Sunday, July 15, 2007

Looking back.....


'How do we look back at what has gone by in our lives? How do we perceive the past?'

They say looking back is important, for reflection and retrospection. When I look back today on what has gone by and what I have done so far...or in other words lived so far, life seems to have been a mixed bag of all possible colors.

A chill runs does my spine when I look back at my professional life. It can only be summed up as a sketchy effort all along, be it for any important examination or any competition that I appeared for. Even when I was prepared for the test of the blade, all I could ever manage was a close shave but never a clean one :-) Sometimes my luck failed me, and most of the times I helped myself.

Anyway, lets skip the hollering and come to the summarization of what has been good!!......I have been blessed with the most supportive parents who have never let their expectations burden my performance, the combination becomes deadly when paired with a bunch of helpful and generous brothers and sisters. But I have to confess that the friends that I found on various stages of my life have played a formidable role in helping me through those tough times and building character. My school gang, who have been 'THE' sources of inspiration and camaraderie right from my junior years till date.

I was nearly kicked out of my college for being lost in a separate world all the time; all was lost until I bumpd into my 'to be' gang at college who redefined the term 'sincerity' to me and took me on a journey of hard work and dedication. The circle of friends at HBTI has been the 'I Ching' of my life. In fact the list is endless if I start naming people from my college days who left a mark on my character, taught me the ups and downs and the realities of life.......people like Safaya need no mention, their pure hearts need no assurance.

Lets come back to the critical point then.......how do we look back at what has gone by in our lives? Do we accept it as our fate, the good and the bad and keep moving; or should we take it all as preparation for .... the final encounter!..the crown of all hurdles!....the master of all chances!.....which, some say, comes only once in a lifetime. Most of us abstain from that chance either due to the fear of failure or else we venture and fail as we did not take a lesson from what we've been through.........

The Beginning....

Hello People,

Let me start my journey here with the consecrated quote which defines my quest in this life...

"I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived. I did not wish to live what was not life, living is so dear, nor did I wish to practice resignation, unless it was quite necessary. I wanted to live deep and suck all the marrow of life, to live so sturdily and Spartan-like as to put to rout all that was not life, to cut a broad swath and shave close, to drive life into a corner, and reduce it to its lowest terms, and if it proved to be mean, why then to get the whole and genuine meanness of it, and publish its meanness to the world; or if it were sublime, to know it by experience, and be able to give a true account of it in my next excursion. For most men, it appears to me, are in a strange uncertainty about it, whether it is of the devil or of God, and have somewhat hastily concluded that it is the chief end of man here to "glorify God and enjoy him forever."

...words from this quote of beloved Henry D. Thoreau, formed the famous starting excerpt of Dead Poet's Society.

Just like a farmer harrows his land, whenever I feel the need to question my deeds (I am a thorough believer of rebirth!!), I recall this quote and it helps me realize my mandate in the campaign called 'LIFE'.

see you guys soon.........